My worst nightmare is to be one of those couples who sits in a restaurant and each has a book to read, or a crossword puzzle, and doesn't talk one bit except to say "So what do you think is the answer for 5 Across?" Even when I'm 50 and 60 and 70 and 80, I want to have things to say to each other even if it's, "So honey, how was your lawn bowling game today?" Yes.
Last week I saw an independent theater production about the QLC - the Quarter Life Crisis, and I fully believe that it exists and is largely centered on The Future. I also fully believe that I'm in my own QLC though I've recently decided to stop thinking about The Future, and stop planning for it, and just be happy in the now. I'm making choices that will make me happy now, and everything else will just fall into place. I used to think by 25 that my life would be together: I'd be in a committed relationship, I'd own my own house (not a chance!), I'd have my career - I'd basically have everything including a white picket fence. Now, I've realised that I can't put a time frame on when I want to buy a house, or get married, or have my career. These things will happen all in their own time. Right now, I just want to be happy and do what I want to do.
Labels: life
In the words of Diane Von Furstenberg:
"Absence is to love like wind is to fire. If it's a small fire, the wind will blow it out. If it's a large fire, the wind will only make it grow into a roar. The most important relationship is the one you have with yourself."
Labels: quotes
Random Things
I just got back from an evening out with my mom. She met me after work and we grabbed a bite of dinner at one of my favourite restaurants downtown and then we went to see Shopaholic. Just us. It was so fun - I have the best mom. :) This weekend we're also going to Vancouver together, and we're going to go shopping and hang out and have a good ol' mother-daughter time!
So it's been a long time since I updated, and because I'm feeling at a loss for what to write, I thought I'd do one of those
25 15 Random Things that was circulating around Facebook a while ago.
1. I have gone through a love-hate relationship with my name. Love it because it's a little unique; hate it because I grew up with no one spelling or pronouncing it correctly. While we're on the subject, it's pronounced Ma-reeee-sa. Get it? That's with a long 'e' sound.
2. I have a chicken pox scar in the middle of my forehead, which I've had mostly a hate relationship with (although now it's barely noticeable). I can still remember being in the Safeway lineup with my mom, recovering from chicken pox and picking at the scab on my forehead, and then picking it off, and leaving the resulting scar. (Eww, okay, that sounded a little gross.)
3. I really, really like to read. I was one of those kids who'd sit at home on the weekends and just read for an entire afternoon. I remember going to the library and checking out 10 books at a time. I still always have at least one book on the go.
4. I listen and watch a lot. I feel uncomfortable when I'm in the spotlight.
5. I have never broken any bones or been in the hospital except for having my wisdom teeth removed.
6. My parents met on a blind date and have been together for 25 years. I hope to one day have a relationship like theirs. My mom didn't marry until she was 31, and that makes me realise that I've got lots of time and not to rush into anything.
7. I own two sets of glasses as well as coloured contacts but my eyes are perfect.
8. I have known my best friends since grades 3 and 4. We've been through years where we drifted apart, but they're the best.
9. I'm an extremely emotional person. I will cry at the slightest thing in movies or on TV or in books. Because of this, I can make rash emotional decisions without thinking things through clearly.
10. I used to be really insecure as a teenager. I avoided wearing my hair down for fear of looking too pretty and people noticing me. It's only been the last 5 years that this has really changed.
11. Speaking of insecure, when I was young, I used to think that I had grown-up's legs because I thought they were too big. I hated wearing bathing suits as young as 8 because of this. Now I think my thighs are just fine.
12. When I first started using the Internet, I created a pseudonym, which ended up being more like an alternate personality, for myself: Karlynn Alyssa Woods. Through her, I was able to let go of my teenage insecurities and be who I wanted to be. It did backfire on me though, as I created some relationships based on lies.
13. I've had 3 very influential relationships in my life, all of which have taught me so much about life, relationships, and myself. I think that love is the most important experience in life, and I wouldn't take any of it back, even if a lot of mistakes were made, that's what's helped me learn.
14. Another thing that's very important to me in life is traveling. I have traveled a lot throughout Canada and the US, Europe, and Thailand, but I don't think my travel bug will ever be satisfied.
15. I am a sleep whore. I need it. Up until 2 or 3 years ago, I used to make sure I got 9 hours every night. Now, I make sure to get 8. If I get under 7, I'm not functional. So, I've never really been one for going to bed super late, because I don't like waking up super late. And now, because it's almost 11:30 PM, even though I've only made it to 15, I will end this.
Labels: random
Lately I've been trying to get more into photography and so I randomly decided to enter a contest on
Worth1000 with that photo I posted in my last post - and I ended up placing 3rd out of 51 entries. Cool! It was a beginner contest, so go figure, but it's helped give me a boost to want to take more photos. :)
Speaking of photos, yesterday was a full-on modeling day for me. In the morning I modeled in a location shoot for my cousin, and she wanted me wearing a dress and heels outside in front of some cool industrial-looking brick buildings - but it was SO COLD. It was windy and 5 degrees out, and there I was in a little dress and heels trying to look hot and oh my god I just tried to give the posing my best shot to get it over with as fast as I could. Although, I ended up being outside for an hour in two different dresses and two different set of heels. Wow. I have a big appreciation for real models now. Haven't seen the photos yet, but can't wait.
Facebook is good at randomness. Tonight a girl who was my penpal when I was probably 10 searched me out on FB. I was at my parents house tonight for dinner and even found old letters that we sent to each other. It was a PenPal service that you had to fill out your name, age, your favourite colour, favourite school subject, other cheesy info, pay $3 and they matched you with someone. (Yep, I even found my penpal application form! - wow, think I'm holding onto some unnececssary stuff?!) Anyway, random and cool.
This week I found out that DairyQueen will make a Blizzard with two different kinds of stuff in it. You do not understand how much this has made my life. Hello gaining 20 lbs.
Actually, I'm sticking to a really good routine of working out 3 times a week. That makes me happy. Although I've also realised that I don't eat enough protein. The only time I eat meat is for dinner, and often I don't even do that. I'm a fiend for peanut butter though, and usually eat it for breakfast, but the point is, I'm still not getting enough protein. I might buy some protein powder. Is that weird? Hello bodybuilder Maresa. ;)
Wait - I wonder if aReese's peanut butter cups Blizzard counts as protein... Haha. Kidding, kidding.
Labels: food, i should just make a tag for ice cream, photography
