It’s funny how oftentimes you are unappreciated until you leave or express interest in leaving somewhere or something or someone... I’m finally, finally feeling like I’m being appreciated at work and it’s all because I gave my notice on Monday to say that I was leaving. In this past week, I’ve never had so much rallying for me to stay – from my immediate boss, from co-workers, from my high-up boss... It’s been unbelievable the lengths and negotiations everyone is going to try and get me to stick around. While I’m not going to stay, it’s been really nice to know that I’m finally appreciated and they consider me a really good fit to the company.

So. What to say. My emotions are zinging this way and that and it seems like I should be anxious or nervous about this next chapter in my life, but instead I just feel calm. I feel happy. Although, to be fair, I do feel an immense sadness about leaving Montreal and the amazing people I’ve met here, and I do have a tiny tiny voice in the back of my head saying that I should be staying for one more summer... But. Choices have been made.

Well, choices have mostly been made. I’m not sure I’m ready to settle down and start a real life back in BC just quite yet... More on that later after plans are more finalized. I feel like I have a little bit of crazy in my blood, I’m feeling a little invincible or something right now. Living in Montreal and creating a fantastic life here, it seems like I can do this anywhere. I can pick up and live in any city.

It’s a great feeling. Maybe that’s why I don’t feel anxious. I just feel content. Now let’s go find some more happiness.

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posted by Maresa @ 1:08 PM